Wanderer

Dents in your bumper you
Couldn't afford to fix
Just keep driving til you
Find a place that sticks

If only the streetlights could
Shield your guilty face
If only the rain could erase
What had taken place



Grown up, now I can walk
The night alone
Sometimes I hate it, sometimes
I'm happy on my own

If only dreams do go on
To become real
Shining bright and white, not
Things darkness steals

Were you born and destined
To sit and write
In an age where so few still
Stand and fight

Plain

It's plain now
The more I gave
The deeper I sank

I can't figure out
In my head just why
I couldn't have lied

You had your dreams
And my only dream
Revolved around you

When the trains roll
Out of my eyeline
I'm on my own again

An Assembly of Catharsis

When you told me thanks but no
It was such a shock to hear
There were no naysayers
In my daydreams

Love, that pathetic feeling
Wouldn't we both like to run
From it as far as we can
But it drags us both back in

How life has been thrown away
In the days since I saw you last
There isn't much to smile about
When I can't tell you of them

The resignation
Is drawing in
The words of comfort
Are wearing thin

I would never have prepared for
The moment you told me that
It was all rather heavy, and you
Prefer to just dance it all away

Does it relieve you when people
Ask if you are still in education
Or does it leave you digging
Still deeper for some dignity

Everything seems to become
Some form of delayed desolation
That lays its tracks across
Our potential perfection

Tell Me

Just tell me what you want to prove
We have come to the point when
Loyalty has its own victim to claim

Just tell me what makes you stay
When he's all those miles away
And I'm still waiting for you

Just tell me why one heart
Means less than another
Just because it arrived late

Barely living

Will the chit chat
Make us both feel better
Or will the simple silence
Suffice?

You still wore your hair
The same as when
I saw you last
Loose and lithe

Two cups of hot chocolate
Pushed up together
Do they say something
Of our future?

The days have been
Less than adequate
The nights have been
Absolutely insufferable

I ask you how work has been
You say it's still going OK
One day they may decide
To promote you

You ask me how work has been
I say I'm still drifting
Hoping one day
Someone notices me

You glance down at your watch
The one from him
That you always religiously
Wore

My heart's newly glued
Pieces are crumbling
Once again
I need you

Please don't walk away
Please don't say
'It was nice to see you
Good luck with everything'

3

In the heart of the city
It's tough to feel free
Maybe it's safer to just
Trust in misery

When you told me
That you felt lonely
In hallowed school halls
That mine your brain

People rush by, chasing
Buses that are always full
We take some time out
From the rush of it all

I told you to be brave
To face down a world
That never rewards
Or sees earnestness

             -

When the leaves died
Left with August
The idealism drained
And the lies still lived

I wanted you
To myself and only
You wanted me 
Very differently

Who do I complain to?
When dreams turn sour?
Is there a way to just
Avoid these stabbing hours?

Love is fleeing
Hate lingers for longer
Than you can bear

Plenty More

When you tried to let me down
In that gentle detached way
I was convinced an army
Could not dredge my tears

He puts an arm around my shoulder
And balances sincere eyes
With a worrying wobble
Tells me I'm too young for this grief

The scenes may change, the city
May call itself the same names
But I can't find that feeling of
Togetherness anymore

He brings another two over
And balances European glasses
On hands that knew this pain
Tells me I know too little of the world

There may be streets of female bodies
There may be rooms of unfound love
But you only ever have one rush
That sincere youth can bring